My Love

I love how very blessed I am with my man
I love how good he is to me
I love how he takes such good care of me
I love his unique ability to help calm me down when I'm stressed or high strung
I love how he makes me laugh when I'm trying to be mad at him
I love how he just loves to have fun and laugh and be himself
I love how I can't help but laugh when he laughs
I love that when we are talking he wants to look at my face
I love that he tells me I'm "so pretty" on days when it seems I really need to hear it
I love being able to sit with him and just talk about our future
I love being the only girl he has eyes for
I love how I don't want to be stubborn when we argue
I love how much he has changed my life
I love how much of a better person because of him
I love his family
I love waking up to his text messages
I love knowing I always have someone to call
I love when he pretends to like something just cause I do
I love that he doesn't always let me have my way
I love that he is the man in our relationship
I love how much he loves me

Dear Heavenly Father

I come to you in prayer today, asking you, begging you to be with my family. There have been so many things happening that could potentially destroy our dynamic. I love my family Father, and I need everything to be okay. Please be with us in the time of need, and please God please show Your love through me.

In Jesus Precious Name,
Amen

1 month and 10 days

I cannot believe how fast this is all going by so fast. I just got finished up with my spring break and now I have a week and a half of classes before Easter break. I cannot believe how fast it is all going by. I have been trying to remain calm but man it's getting tough. I will have so many projects and papers due once April hits that I won't even notice that month. But you know what I'm not freaking out anymore. I am trusting God that He is going to put me (or keep me) where He wants me to be. I am trusting God that I will be able to live and survive while still paying for my student loans, and I am trusting God with everything going on in my life. If nothing else this scary experience will bring me closer to God in every aspect and it will teach me alot.

The Parentals

Sometimes I forget how much better I feel when I vent to my parents. I love being able to talk to them and just get things off my chest because they just sit there and listen and than of course offer advice and prayer, which always makes me feel better no matter what the situation is or was.

Oh Wow

So today I was just going through my routine of killing time between classes, and I came across the good-ol countdown. I nearly threw up when I realized that I graduate in 1 month and 27 days, or 56 days and 22 hours. I have been so excited for this but now I'm freaking out. I am the type of person that loves to plan things out and to have a schedule and thus the reason for my freak out. I want so badly for a 9a-5p job. I don't want to work nights and weekends anymore, but I have to leave in reality, and accept that I have loads of student loans to pay back and money doesn't grow on trees. Well I guess I'll just keep doing what I have been doing and apply for random positions everyday. Wish me luck kids

IT FINALLY HIT ME

Yes, Yes I've been counting down for the entire semester, but it just hit me how close I really am. I cannot believe that in exactly two months from today I will be graduating with a Bachelor's of Science!!!!!!!! I can't wait, and yet I am freaking out, and now I am extremely terrified. What the heck am I going to do lol. The repayment mode on my loans activates in November, I desperately need a huge pay raise or maybe a new job all together. I've considered myself an adult for quite some time due to the fact that I'm 22, I'm independent, I go to school and work and still manage to find time for homework and the boyfriend, but this is serious business, in May I really am an adult, I'm going to be hit with so many new bills I'm not even going to survive lol. Maybe continuing at school isn't such a bad idea lol. Well I guess RCC and the ASL program will have to do for a little bit, and maybe even going to get my Notary liscence. HMMMM lots to consider i Guess.